May 14, 2004
Journal Entry 21 --- A fallen Hero
If it were not for my good friend Marconi and the family that resided at that studio like Nik and Tiny, I would not have gotten the recognition I have received here in my own town. Do you realize how FUCKING LUCKY I am to have had the opportunity to have a voice on one of the best shows I’ve had the privilege to be apart of.
Marconi and Tiny saw me at a Stanhope show and saw something that everyone else had ignored. He saw that I had a passion for what I do, which by the way is speaking with pure truth and honesty and saying things that people don’t always want to hear and somehow pulling funny out of it.
All I’ve ever wanted to do in my life is entertain people, make them laugh but yet have something to really say, a message. Marconi has that same ambition and while my critics say that I’m filthy and have nothing but shock value, he stopped and said no! You’re one funny Mother F’r.
Then he gave me a regular spot on the show and gave me an opportunity to give that same opportunity to up and coming comedic talent. I wish that some of the headliners who were in my position gave me that piece of hope when I was starting out on the mic. You’re supposed to pass the penny and that’s what Marconi did. He believed in me… He passed a penny to me.
Over time he became not just an opportunity but a friend, a true friend, which is so fucking difficult in this business. The entire crew became family, Nik, Tiny and his lovely wife to be. I was lucky enough to see Marconi as a real person with a heart of gold and shiny soul. Someone who has not one mean bone in his body and a passion for radio that is as strong as mine for comedy. It’s more then just a job but a girlfriend that understands you in a way that no other will ever; And for once I sit here at my computer with no joke in hand, no funny at the tip of my tong, just sadness, just pain and emptiness capturing every thought I have. And I am deeply, deeply sorry for his, Tiny’s, and Nik’s loss. I know what this show meant to them, I know the hunger they feel for what they do and some will never understand that.
Marconi is a solider. He tried to push the envelope; he tried to give you something that other morning shows don’t have, something fresh. Not the same old chuckle head behind the mic, and sometimes when you walk that far out you fall, everyone behind him prey that he does, it is just the way people work. Those blazing trails are most likely to be attacked by those following them, most likely find themselves in holes that they did not see. No one should sit on a high horse this evening; His mistake has now cost him HIS head. Some of you judge, I know that there is some guy judging him for his mistake who is probably $10000 dollars behind in child support. We all fall, we all strive to learn the right way and despite what some might think, it takes mistakes to learn, to become better… That is the process of life my friends. We can chalk this one up to a beautiful mistake. No one falls with grace; take that from a guy who always falls. Marconi is good at what he does, and the grace comes from those who stand and step forward to blaze another trail, and his critics will fallow behind him once again because that is all critics are good at doing, walking the trails that others built, never falling, never learning, never working hard, just walking slowly behind, bitter and jealous of some hard working leader, and for that our Marconi deserves respect; that entire team does. And if we are lucky we shall have another opportunity to hear them fall again.
I can’t give much back yet, but I am scheduled to perform on Saturday night at the Wichita bar and grill an hour long show. I will be dedicating that show to my falling hero. I invite EVERY SUCKIE IN PORTLAND to attend and we shall make it a night that Oregon city will never forget! It’s only $2.00 at the door, lets laugh, drink and celebrate death in style.
I wish only the best for you Marconi, and your family and thank you for making me apart of it and seeing something in me, thanks for every moment I had with you, Tiny, and Nik. You guys are brilliant and you’ll be back on your feet in no time.
LB
Posted by Lonnie at 07:43 PM
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